爱的初体验

在咖啡店的旁边,有个老人家正在吃着自己的薯条,然而,他的眼,他的心,完全不在薯条那,也根本不在乎那对上了年纪的老人家老说是多么的无益.繁忙的脚步来来往往, 唯独他，只身一人坐在旁,慢慢的慢慢的,将一根一根的薯条,往嘴里送......或许 他根本不饿,但为了她,他怎样都要撑下去,不然谁去照顾她呢!!!!! 在他心里,肯定无时无刻的在念着:亲爱的,你要加油啊....!!!!!!

他,每天都会准时在她病房里出现,而她,却得了老年痴呆症,时常会把他给忘了,也不知道自己身处何处.而且,还有其他的病魔在缠着她. 他总是会握住她的手说"good morning, darling,是时间我们吃早餐了哦！吃了，才会好得快点哦！那我们就可以回家了。

看着他，他的眼里总是充满了希望；与他交谈，他总会说，她今天比昨天有精神多了。。。
其实，他的内心是充满了恐惧，担忧，不舍和挂念吧！虽然没有表现出来，可他的内心是多么的渴望亲爱的她，不要放弃，要加油，和他一起加油；相信他，他会一直陪着她的。。。。

午餐的他就这样孤单一人坐在咖啡店旁，吃着五味不全的午餐。。。。。。

放心吧！我们会替你好好照顾她的，你的心声她会感受到的，她也会在你牵着她时，在内心深处加油着。。。。

睁开双眼，本应看到和煦的阳光，可此时已是夕阳西下了。。。
裹在被窝里，暖暖的，不自主地想起了你。。。

我们曾经踩着自行车一起上学，在下晚自习时，那拥挤的校园；也曾好羡慕你绘画的能力，丰富的想象力。情窦初开的我们总是猜测，某某好喜欢你哦~~~~.脸上总是充满羞涩的微笑；礼拜天我们还会到漂亮的公园去拍照；去弄班里的黑板报，天真无邪，无忧无虑，好幸福。你还记得么？此时的你们都在忙些什么呢？？你们要过得开心点啊，童时的伙伴，我想你了。。。

岁月的脚步慢慢在移动，早上站在高岭上看到的日出，至今还清楚地在脑海里上升；我们光着脚丫在沙滩上玩耍，追逐着零碎地海浪，任它拍打着我们的裤腿；清晨学校的操场，总会有我们的笑声；午休时间，我们一张床，好多个头，秘密私语；喜怒哀乐诉不完。不久，你我面临着人生第一个分离，你们离开了我们曾经一起生活3年的城市，我也步入了多愁善感的高中生活，然而初中3年所建下的友情，让我们一直都延续着。。。；想你了哦！我枕边的知己。

当花季雨季的高中生活正在沸腾时，我怀着一颗好奇，兴奋的心，去追寻新鲜而陌生的人生。也因此，就和你隔离了一个太平洋。曾几何时，还因此和你闹过脾气，只因你话中存在的一点疑问和反对。虽然如此，在短短的花季雨季时陪伴你们在运动场的日子总让我不经意的傻傻的笑了。。。；你们过得开心么？ 想你了。。。

总是无时不刻，牵挂着我，我的生活，工作和身体健康的家人，你们放心吧！我过得很好，很开心。只想对你们说，我想你们了！

此时的自己，又再次和生活了5年的陌生城市分开，重新去熟悉新的环境。想你了，曾经一起面对新生活的伙伴，谢谢你们间断的问候和曾经的照顾。。。

still remmenber first Easter in Canberra:

sitting in the library, a few people in there with you

so quiet, then you can hear the sound of the wind blew the tree outside

not even the patient would like to come out of the hospital to smoke

half hour to 45 minutes for one bus came pass...

then you wont expect many cars on the road.

this Good Friday, could be better than last year,

i wont have chance to observe outside stuffs

getting up late, having something to eat then working till night

the second Easter will go in the day in Canberra again.......

Happy Easter!!!

having another day off is really good. normally, there will be nothing to do except house cleaning.

well, as usual, they are all done. then met my friend in the shopping center and we were going to play golf today.

the interesting thing is we never played before.

hehehehehe~~~~~

never mind, we start from the beginning.....

one hour......two hour.....

finally, we finished the round- 9 holes

there was an old man, about 92 yrs old.

he played i think was about 14 holes, only took him half hour..... 

MY GOD!!!!!!!

dont wanna compare to us~~~~~

but we had lots of fun though~~~~ one more new thing we've learned

it's coming, in the next few days i will go to the L driving license course.

just doing this for one reason n one person :D .........

fingers cross i could pass the test at the end a!

hehehehe~~~~

i dont like people get angry just becz of the tinny little thing, i'll be really annoyed then.

i dont like people always have lots of excuses when they dont wanna do something for/ with the others

i dont like people acting is different to what they said.

i dont like......

i used to dream that all my teeth were too soft and falling off, then i woke up, found that my teeth still there. hahahaha~~~

to be honest, i cant remember when did i have my teeth checked up last time. in somebody's words, that means loooooooooooong time ago then.

hehehehe~~~maybe

if somebody ask me again, i will tell them on the 19th of sept i went to see the dentist. 1st is becz my teeth are need to be checked up, 2nd is my boyfriend said that it wont be hurt, and i thought that alright, then i went. ignor the pain i had bear through, i received heaps of info about brushing the teeth that i never heard be4, like we gonna hold the tooth brush 45 degree towards to the gum to brush for 2 mins. oops, normally when i am in a hurry, i would have it done in 2 secs. hahaha~~~ 

usually, i will go body x-ray, but today i had 2 x-rays all about my teeth. gee, they look terriblly from the xray. the only person likes it is my boyfriend. he will look at them and smile. he is unreal, cant just love him a little bit then. hehehe~~~ 

well, after checked up and cleaned, my teeth feels more smooth now. however, the dentist wants me to see him more times, becz he said he needs a week to clean my teeth....

wah~~ recently, too busy to update my blog. it is the time to add something now.

thank GOD! i just finished my IELTS today. whether i can pass to get my PR done or not, i have no idea. also dont really wanna think of  it.

waiting is the best way i can leave it.

anyway, now i have one of my things on my list sorted. happy happy~~~~

eventhough not many friends will look at my space, but at least she ( a friend who i never met ever) will. i really apreciate your consistancy n support. thank you!

i will occasionally update something in my space from now on o  

 

my goodness me! what has been happening????

during these couple months, i have heard one couple said "YES, I DO" and the other pair is coming soon.

2 friends get married!

it is a "heart attack" a

that means we gonna move, gonna take responsibilities for ourselves a bit

but what can i do then???????

if the chance hasnt come, there wasnt any ready for you then

never mind! there is one day is mine 

bless them!

hahahahahaaaaaaa~~~~

 

quite often,

i have friends surrouding me,

sending me their greetings,

i really appreciated that my friends, and also feel really happy.

thx guys!

however, i sort of lost my target!

i start feeling grief in my heart.

is grief always coming after happiness?

becz ppl worry to lose whatever they've owned at the moment,

they worry abt that they possiblly will dissapointed their close friends;

they worry abt that they havent done the best;

they worry abt that they could get lasy just due to life is so sweet;

they worry abt that one day, no friends surrounding them, no greetings, no missing .........

how can they used to the life then???/

thinking......

missing.......

the room is so quiet.................  

something in my mind that i just want to write them down. however, i dont know where i should start.......

anyway, i'm tired go to bed 1st.  

waaaaa! i slept in ! i supposed to work at 7 am but i got up at 9am. wooooooooo, MG! i looked at my phone 9 missed calls, which was from the shifty. i jumped up from my bed n called the shifty. lucky, there was somebody called sick in the pm then i can work the pm shift instead of am. thank God! continue my sleep then....... haaaaaaa...........

 

when i went to work in the afternoon, everybody was suprising n asking that bon, where have u been to lovi. i told them, i slept in n that was my bed's fault, becz it was so  warm + i forgot to set up my alarm + accidently, my phone was on verbrate. that's why i didnt turn up. at the end everybody was laughing and said bonny................  you just so cute! never mind, we are happy you are in the afternoon. what ??????........!!!!!!~~~~~~   i was confused, what was going on in people's mind????? feels like i was spoilt.

 

never mind, better then not been spoilt then!

haaaaaaaaaa   

australians read, or at any rate, more magazines per head than any other nation. people spend $765 million a year on them, which means that every man, woman, and child buys 15 magazines a year. women's weekly, which is actually a monthly, sells 889600 a month. then the list goes like this: woman's day (754000 a week), reader's digest(517000 a month), new idea (508000 a week), that's life (468000 a week) and tv week (401000) and Better Homes and Gardens (334000 a month)

 in recent years, the mass magazine marker has been slowly declining, as the audience has grown tired of sensatioanlised gossip and has fragmented to "niche" magazines. the fasterst growing glossies in the late 1990s are personal computer mags, girlfriend ( for teenyboppers), Marie Clarie ( for fashionable women), and Gourmet Traveller ( for rich hedonists)

my dear friends whoever work night duty, pls stop it now. it is killing ppl. i had 3 nights shift n every time when i finished my work n came home, my eyes were heavy, my mind was crazy n the body was exhausted but i just could not get into sleep. the acnes are the only happy stuffs. they came out n showed on ur face. how terrible is it! my life is ruined by this kind of shift. n i still got more to go.................

wa~~~! it's been a month i havent added a new blog for my space! (but the other one  QQ). Well, here i am again.

last night was one of the workmates farewell party, also was the first night out since i changed my environment, plus first dizziness after a drink. hahahaha~~~~~ that was my workmates' fault, they introduced me the first fizzy alcohol and also wanted to find me a boyfriend. so cute and nice. hehehehe~~~. we were waiting for a good music to dance but no luck though!

after last night, i love to work in that ward more n more. even though it's a busy ward. people could get mad at some stage but we all help each other out! what a beauty! that is team work, mate! we are busy, we do complaining but that just something we can chat during the tea break. the most important thing is that i can feel everyone is happy.

i love my work and friends at work. they make you feel sooooooooooo happy n sooooooooooooooooo relax. ^ - ^

( there are some photos of the farewell party n the friends o )

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maybe people will say that i'm really "out", because yesterday was the first time i watched "notebook" this movie. i dont know why my tear dropped from my eyes. after i wiped them from my face, i felt that this kind of love doesnt exist in reality anymore . what a pity! nowaday, love is based on the substances. eventhough it happened before, but when people did felt in love, they did really stay with each other for the rest of their life. when the wife had dementia, the husband was trying to bring back the happy time they had been through...........! how sweet!

i must be dreaming ! hahahahahaaaaaaaa = ]

it's sunny day. i'm going to a friend's home for lunch! by the way i can have a look the friend she told me. maybe i'll have one more friend o ! how's things going??? wait for i'm coming back.........................

it's amazing--the design and the photos, which have been taken by a designer,also a photographer who i don't know

it is something i can't understand but when i reviewed it, i can feel it

the feeling i can't explained....

the feeling tht u only want to continue...........

u want to close to it.....

but it seems too far away from you......................

nobody knows how hard it is when u fell down and try to stand up by urself. i don't want to just pretend to be a happy person, when i did really come accross some unhappiness. but what can i do? i don't want anybody gets involved in the trouble. that's all right i'll be fine. nothing is impossible. i just need to be patience, to wait and to reflect everytime. fighting >>>!!!  

finally finished my second probation assessment. coming on the last one. i need more challenges for myself. otherwise, peopel will think i not moving on. what do i need to do more then????? actually i do know what i need to improve but i just wasn't borned to interesting in reading. MG~~~~~~~~~~~ help ~~~~~~~~~~. can sbody help me to build up my reading interest! ! ! ! ! !

aiaiaiaiaiaiai~~~~~~fighting lo. think it again tomorrow! 

 

 

outside the sky is blue, the wind is warm just what people will like,the leaves still green, somtimes you can hear the birds talk to each other. on the road you will see couple cars drive pass; beside the road, there are kids play with each other in the park.what a beautiful day!through my window there are a few flower branches extend to the front.this is the outside view of my room in canberra.                

i like this city. it is quiet and boring, but it also is a place people could adjust their massive mind and mood.it gives people plenty personal space, to relex, to think and to feel. This is what i need at the moment. canberra my new start city. 

never known what is called "sick", always look after the other people. when they were sick, had a talk to them. to make them feel happy. i believe happiness is the best medicine. when they get better, i feel happy for them, after all and finally they kind of get rid of sickness and pain.

now i knew what is called sick. but there is nobody to talk to ........

what a life!

it is very strange

never could predict anything for the next second

should i blame it? if i do, does it help me? if it doesn't, why should i?

never mind! life is different..........................

i got mine !

 

i hate myself.....

i did it again. i spent the whole night on watching tv series

it made me really tired and lasy

i can't do this anymore, it will ruin my life......

but i just cant control myself....................

what can i do then, M/G

somebody helps.....................................

 

what a quiet easter in canberra!

you can only feel the cold wind, when you walk around 

this is the first time i spend a such quiet time by myself!

sitting in front of the computer

typing the feeling at this moment.........

missing some friends....

sort of...

thinking of what i'm going to eat tonight......

it seems unlikely that i will enjoy, anyway.......

it is a kind of empty feeling ......

but i don't know does it really matter to me or not........